Time to 'fess up. I'm layin' it out on the table for you. My dark secret is finally coming out into the open.
I am not perfect.
What?!
I wish I could be the woman who has it all together. The one who has children who listen to her words and take them to heart and remember them when temptation comes knocking. I wish I didn't have to keep re-learning lessons. Especially the lesson that says, "It's
not about me."
Have I completely disillusioned you?
Do you still want to be my friend?
You're so sweet.
Let me tell you about my humbling experience yesterday.
Well actually, for the past few weeks. (It takes me a while, I guess)
My youngest, darling baby that he is, is seven and a half months old. He's been sleeping through the night since he was 4 weeks old. Told ya I'm spoiled.
That is, until about six weeks ago. Out of the blue, my happy sleeping baby was waking up screaming. And by howdy, do I mean screaming.
Seeing as that I'm Big Mama and Big Daddy has to get up at some early morning hour that I didn't even know existed, the task came to me to comfort, feed, snuggle, feed, change and feed this bouncing baby boy.
At first, I didn't mind. Occasionally, maybe a wee bit frustrated. I
am human, remember? So, dutifully, I'd drag my half-asleep self and tend to him. This happened night after night. For six weeks. Straight.
Let me add right here, Big Daddy has been incredibly supportive throughout (of course, he's been getting the sleep!) Seriously, though, he's been so appreciative and affirming of me.
Sunday morning, in the wee small hours, I heard his siren go off again.
Aye, chihuahua.Dragged self out of bed. Changed poopy diaper. Nursed him. Watched a really old version of Pride and Prejudice on cable. Got back into bed. Wanted to cry and body slam my husband for continuing to sleep. I was slightly grumpy. Oh, how I complained to God. Oh, how I wanted to complain to my unconscious husband. I just wanted to have a good gripe session. But I slept instead.
Turns out, when my hubby's alarm clock went off (if we don't set it, church is half over by the time we get there), I didn't move. My husband actually went to the store and I never knew he was gone.
When he got back, he tiptoed upstairs, came to my side of the bed and proceeded to wave the aroma of hot, fresh pumpkin spice latte under my nose. The blessed man had gone to my favorite coffee shop and gotten my favorite coffee (and a muffin) for little ol' imperfect me. To top it off, it was in my favorite mug.
I was humbled. I mean, face down on the floor humbled before my Lord. My husband didn't need to hear my complaints. He knew what was going on while he slept. What's more is that he appreciated my sacrifice for him.
The Lord, also, didn't need to hear my complaints and grumblings. He knew what was going on all the time.
This man spoils me rotten! He honestly treats me like a queen every day of my life. I've never known anyone who treated and loved their wife like he does me.

My kids hear over and over my voice telling them to not have complaining hearts. What they didn't know was that I was preaching to the choir.